Alone

I have never felt so alone in my whole life. There is literally no one to reach out to who I can go and be with, to just sit with as this knowledge floods through me and the realisations hit. There is no one in my real life who has any idea of the magnitude of what I am trying to take in.

I am losing my safe person, my attachment figure, the closest person I’ve ever had to a mother, the person who knows all of me and has stayed and held hope for me through the darkest times of my life. In six months, if we work till she goes, we will say goodbye and never see each other again. I am losing her.