Just clicked send on this after my session ended half an hour ago… My heart is breaking.
I don’t need more time to think, I know in my heart that a pause is the right thing to do. There is so much work we all want to do with you still – gentle, healing work of the kind we were finally able to do, but we can’t do it this way. We are going to break us if we keep trying, and after taking all these years to build a relationship that is so strong, that would be even more heart-breaking than this situation already is. This feels like such a hard thing to do, but I am hurting both of us keeping going like this, I can feel it.
I will take the next two sessions and then go on a pause. We have a card and gift for you also as we will have been working together for 5 years on 26th August, so I will try and sort out getting that in the post so we can see you open them before then.
It feels very important for all of us that it is clear it is a break and not an ending – there is no way any of us ever would have ended our work like this without the pandemic. Being able to be in a room with you and not feeling like it was killing us was so precious after all those years of struggle, and we want more time soaking that in because it was so hard to get to that point and we are not ready to leave it behind.
With best wishes,